Tuesday, December 24, 2013

15.entry: Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014

"It is a man-made opportunity for us to write a new book, or at least a new chapter."

So my darlings, it is time for festivities to begin. We have come a long way. We have made mistakes, we have done some things right, but in the end we came out stronger. Because we are still here and what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger, right? So today I will not write a long essay about how you should be better and what can you do make it right. No, today I will tell you to enjoy your holidays and make plans and dreams for the new year that is going to be phenomenal. 

People say that New Year is bullshit and it is a waste of time and it is nothing special. Well it may be true, but it gives us a new energy and hope, a new strength to go on. To start all over, to start fresh. And that is what we all need to do. In the following week let us reflect on what we have achieved and let us acknowledge all that has happened to us in the year 2013. And sit down for a moment and cherish it all. Just soak in all the memories, the good and the bad. Like a mirror, we can see who we have become in this year. And on that basis we can make plans for a new year. Because we need dreams, we need hope, we need that spark inside of us, that we can make it better, that we can change and prosper. 

Lets forgive and forget all the bad things, just let it all go. Let go of all the anger and hate, and lets make some room for love instead. For love is our power. It gives us strength to help each other and to smile everyday. And even though I am not religious, I do believe in Christmas, the idea of it at least. Its time of rebirth, time to start a new. So my darlings, dare to make plans, because the sky is our limit and nothing can hold us back.
“Each night, when I go to sleep, I die. 
And the next morning, when I wake up, I am reborn.”

Sunday, December 15, 2013

14.entry: Fate and Destiny are for The Faint-Hearted!

“Knowing too much of your future is never a good thing.” 

So as promised in the last post I will talk about destiny and fate. But first let me mention the sudden increase in my viewership on my blog. Thank you readers for supporting me and let me just say, together we will make a better present and a wonderful future. I am positive of this. 

So why have I decided to talk about fate and destiny? I will never deny the existence of it, because it is not in my almighty power to do so, but let me point out, that I am a firm believer that we make our own destiny, and where there is a power there is a way. There have been many attempts for people to find our their future and their fate with the help of cards, magicians, magic orbs and stuff like that, and I am not saying it is not possible, I just don't think we should know what future holds for us. Because every day we make decisions and every day we shape who we are and the path we are on. So, by knowing what might be in store for us, we would turn out to be bias for certain decisions.

We make our destiny! First we need to know what we want and go after it. By doing so, we are heading down a path to our so called "destiny". To explain you this, let me share a quote with you: "Happiness is a combination of the right decisions." Nothing more and nothing less. If you decide right for yourself then you shall be happy. Because you will decide for what is right and good and what will get you closer to your goal.

So many believe in a certain fate that is written in the stars for us. Or maybe, in a book that is held by almighty God, and he decides what will be our destiny and where will we end up. I say no to all this! Yeah I will defy the universe! I will not accept that my path has been laid before me, long before I was born. Because what would be the point of going down a path and reaching a goal that has been compromised for you already. I think that everything that happens in our lives defies us and helps us get on. And also the person who I am today, has different fate and destiny then the person I was 2 years ago. He got me to where I am today and maybe that was his fate. We change everyday and so does our destiny. It is not something that is set in stone. So you can change who you are and where will you be going, you just need to be strong enough.  

So many people say that something happened for a reason, that somebody gives us obstacles we need to overcome to makes us stronger. You know how that someone is, life and yourself. We challenge ourselves everyday and we make things happen. For instance let me give you and example: You get really sick and the doctors tell you that you wont make it if you don't stop smoking or drinking or something bad. And then you think to yourself: "Oh look, this disease happened to me for a reason, because God wants me to live a better and healthier life.". Well that is just wrong, we called the disease upon us by doing something wrong in the first place and it probably wouldn't happen to us if we didn't smoke or drink. So there is no "might happen for a reason". It is just our decisions that make us or brake us. And our decisions come from our mind so they are who we are. And by that we are the reason, behind things that happen to us in life. We are the key to our happiness. (this exclude bad things that can/may happen to us, because of an accident or something - here I apply the rule, "we cant prevent what we cant predict").

So my suggestion to all of you would be. Go out there, and fucking make your own destiny happen. Do what makes you happy and believe that nobody can determine your future for sure, but yourself. Be who you want to be, and be happy. 

I do not believe in a fate that falls on men however they act; but I do believe in a fate that falls on them unless they act. 
- Buddha (if Buddha says so, you have to at least consider it :D )

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Saturday, November 30, 2013

13.entry: Stress - the modern killer

“You must learn to let go. Release the stress. You were never in control anyway.

Hello, hello my dearest readers, so today I will be discussing the moder issue, which is sadly present in all of our lives and we must learn to deal with it. Why have I chosen this problem you might think? Well no matter how calm I am now, there was a time when stress was causing me so much problems that my whole existence was painful. So let me tell you my story.

It was 4 years ago and it was my first year in college. I didn't do so well then, because lets face it, economy isn't something that is super interesting and I barely made it to class each day, because I was just too easy going about school. I mean easy going as in lazy and reluctant to learn something new. So the year passed and I had done only 3 out of 10 exams, and I needed 8 to go to the second year of college. It was the begging of the summer and I was still careless about the exams. Then in the middle of my summer vacation when I was having so much fun at some Croatian island it hit me. I needed to do 5 more exams in September to pass, and I was nowhere close to learning and studying and I had only 1 month of summer left to do all that. Then all of a sudden there was this tingly feeling in my lower arms and knees, first I thought it was because I was tanning to much and I was just sun-burned. But then I started to feel exhausted and tired, but I couldn't sleep. It was the worst feeling ever. It is like you have no control over your body and the feelings of tingliness and tiredness just wouldn't go away. So I started worrying about that and I called my mother and told her what was happening to me. And so she called a doctor and the doctor said that is common for stress. I was shocked, I was having fun, partying, enjoying the beach and the sea, how can I be under stress right? But the answer is, it all came after me, the whole studying and exams, they were with me, on my vacations. i was devastated, then I started worrying so much I was having problems breathing and was close to a panic attack. There was nothing I could do. After I came home it got better, because I took a book and started learning. So I knew I was doing the right thing and the stress slowly faded away. It all ended on 28 of September when I finally passed the 8th exam and I was officially in the second year of college. But the summer for me was ruined. Because of the damn stress and because I couldn't handle it. It was all my fault. I know that now. I could have handled it better if only I would know how. I do now. 

So that is my story of stressful time I had and my first real encounter with stress. I promised myself I never want to feel that again so I started taking some steps to get better and to learn about stress and how to prevent it. 

We all have stress and it is not necessarily a bad thing, because it can motivate us, but too much of it, constantly, can be our demise. So I beg of you, if you worry to much and stress about things, well don't, because it will only bring you pain and destruction. Stress should be a powerful driving force, not an obstacle.

Life is so much more then worrying about stuff. Life is to be enjoyed every minute of ever day. I still have to remind myself about that from time to time. But I am calm; I am at peace with myself and the decisions I make. Because if you will worry about things it wont help you, believe me I have been there. If you have a problem, either solve it if you can, but if you cant then you should not worry. I always say to myself: "We will cross the bridge when we get there." That doesn't mean you shouldn't plan or be careless, it just means that you should not worry about something you have no influence on. My mother was always worried when I got my driver`s license and I was gone for a long time, that something  bad happened to me. And then one day she said to me; "Look I trust you and I know I shouldn't worry, because no matter what, there is nothing I can do, to prevent bad things happening on the road when you are away." So here it is kids, a lesson from my mother that I still remember. You can not prevent what you can not predict! So why worry about it. 

I know many of you worry about passing exams and so on. I honestly do not anymore. Because either I study a lot and I am prepared so I give it my best and if I shall pass that would be great, but if I fail, well there is always a next time, or I don't study and I still do my best, but I know it is my fault and I am the one who has to live with it. Again, life is there to enjoy it, and there is no hurry, no rush, everything in its own time. Remember that. Everything you do, you are accountable for. So you are either your own victory or destruction. And as long as you can live with that, it is OK. You create your own destiny and you decide on your own fate. But about that I shall write in my next post. So stay tuned for more information about out fate and destiny and who is in charge of our life. 

The last thing I want to pass onto you guys is that, really do not worry too much. And if you are under stress learn how to control it and life happily ever after, because that is what life is all about - being happy.

“I promise you nothing is as chaotic as it seems. Nothing is worth your health. Nothing is worth poisoning yourself into stress, anxiety, and fear.” 

Saturday, November 16, 2013

12.entry: The Darkness Inside of Us

"If you don't have any shadows, you are not standing in the light!"

Dear readers, so in today`s blog I will talk about the so called ongoing battle between the light and the dark part of us. And also I have decided to shorten my entries since it is easier, and like that I can make more posts. So the darkness inside of us.

I know it sounds poetic when I talk about this battle, but I am sure you will understand. Because we have all felt it, the darkness around our heart, when we want to do something bad. The thing is, there is nothing wrong with having that urge to be bad, heck, it is normal. We all have light and dark inside of us. What matters is the part, when you choose which one will you act on. It is like having the devil and angel on our shoulders telling us what to do. But we must not give in into the temptation. I mean not always that is. We can afford to be bad once in while and do something egoistic as long as we don't harm the people around us. Because I have seen so much wrong things being done lately, it is on TV on the Internet, people are giving in into the darkness. If you read newspapers you know what I am talking about. People are dying by the hand of another, because of a grudge or even boredom. What has this world come to? Are we so stupid we cant even tell the difference between good and bad. Honestly you can not go and kill somebody if you are bored. Think about what you are doing first. Have we sacrificed our conscience for the sake of progress. But what kind of progress is it, if it makes us blind to see what is happening around us. We need to put an end to this foolish behaviour. We need to stand up to the bad side of us and not let it define who we are. Because once we give in, it will kill us and there is no return. Just like in Star Wars, when Anakin gave up and crossed to the dark side. In the end he found salvation but how many innocent people were hurt in the process? I know it is only a movie, but it has some great lectures about evil and good. 

So the conclude this battle, to end the war we must always chose the good, the light. Because good is our natural state. No matter the cost, we need to stop the bad things happening all around us, we must stop the bullying, the fights even the verbal abuse. We are our own salvation. I know you might think, what is he talking about, I am not doing anything wrong. But let me tell you, you might not be doing anything wrong at the moment, but somebody will maybe think twice before doing something stupid, before insulting somebody. And if it is only one person, that is enough for me. 

So accept the darkness you have and repress it, because this is the only way to stay sane and sound. 
And here is a saying and a picture for the end, just to make you think a little bit. 

“The whole course of human history may depend on a change of heart in a single, solitary, even humble individual. For it is within the soul of the individual that the battle between good and evil is waged and ultimately won or lost."                                           ― Henry David Thoreau

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Saturday, October 26, 2013

11.entry: The gift of choice to be good!

"The moment we stop fighting for each other, that’s the moment we lose our humanity."

Dear readers, 

Today I will talk to you more about our freedom of choice to be good rather then being ordinary. 
So as we are stepping forward in this world we often lose a sight of who we are and what we want. This happens to me like all the time. But the one thing I try to keep constant, is to be good. And by doing so I find my way back to who I am and what I want to do with my life. Because everyday I see people who are too involved in their own world to even see what is happening around them, who is hurting and who needs our help. I have said this so many times, but some people do need our help, and we have to help them. It happens everyday when something bad happens to somebody and people just stand by, taking pictures with their phones and nobody tries to help them, because they think somebody else will. But here is the problem, who will help the unfortunate if everybody thinks like that? So we have to, not only want to help, but it is our duty to help another human being. I am not saying that everybody is like that, it just that to many think they don't need to help. 
I have to be honest with you, the motivation for today`s post is coming from me watching Man of Steel, finally! And the movie was amazing, and the whole idea behind the movie is that we have to take care of each other, and let people help us. Because there is a force inside each and everyone of us to be good, and this force is a hope for our humanity. And by being good, I don't mean just be good to people around you, but to everything there is, animals, nature, country and whole together to the world that is around you.

May this symbol reminds you of your choice to be good.

Sometimes we forget that every act we take part in, will somehow reflect on our future and we build our world day by day, and also destroy it. We think we have no impact on what is going on around us. Let me tell you that every act of kindness is a drop in the "happy" sea, and you may ask yourself, what difference does this one drop make compared to the whole sea, well sugar, sea is just a multitude of drops. And yes when you put them together the power is greater, and we all can contribute to make it even stronger. So I want to empower you to use the gift of choice you have in you, and you need to chose to be good rather then do nothing. Because fighting for each other is the fundamental to our existence, we need to be driven by the force of good and only then we shall achieve our victory. 

I hope, by know I have motivated you to be a good person. Let me tell you how you can do that, if you are new at this. First start with small things, like smiling to somebody who is having a bad day, and talk to people nicely, even though they are grumpy or not in the mood or whatever. And then when you walk around the city be aware of the world around you, and if somebody needs help, be the hand that holds them up and give them hope to go on. Here I would like to suggest other kinds, like a charity organization. I, for a fact, am a part of Rotaract organization. That is a charitable organization known all around the world that helps people in need, or the people in your local community. Rotaract is basically for anybody who is from 18-30 years old and it is a part of Rotary organization, which is meant fol older people. And we actually just opened this new club, Rotaract Kranj (that is the name of the city in which we act in) and so far we are doing amazingly. So there are many options for everybody to be the best they can be, chose whatever suits you the best and just do good. Believe me it feels amazing to be a good person, if fills you up with all the best emotions. So by helping other you also help yourself.
Here I will post a link to a facebook page of our charity Rotaract Kranj, which you can like and see what we do and maybe it will give you and idea what to do next.

And on the picture below are my friends from this Rotaract club I talk so much about, this picture was taken when we were established and started our way down the "be a good person" road. 

And for the end let me share with you a video from YouTube,where you can see how helping others can also help you and the whole circle is completed. And remember the Superman sigh = the force in us to do good, and the choice we need to make to be good. 

So everyday when you wake up put a smile on your face, and on as many other faces you can through the day, and you will go to bed with the biggest smile I promise!

Au revoir!

Friday, October 11, 2013

10.entry: New Beginning(s)

Life is our own and everyday is a new beginning and a new victory. What we have lost, wont come back if we long for it, we need to keep moving forward and start new chapters.

So my return is absolute. I have been busy, but mostly lazy. Anyways I am here again, ready to inspire all of you that read my blog. So I shall dedicate this chapter to new beginnings, which is only appropriate after my comeback. Pictures are from my road trip I did with two amazing friends through South of France.
                                        (at the "top of the world" Verdon Gorge in France)

I am super excited that school has started again, now I am doing masters at the Faculty of Economics in Ljubljana, and I must say, so far so good. I have stopped working at the job I had, because school`s timetable gives me absolutely no room for interpretation, but it has been good for me. I have more time to focus on school and do all sorts of new activities. I do sports everyday, and my plan from January is coming together, that is, I need to get in shape!! So far I have lost 17 kg and still counting. People would say that I was never overweight, but my parents would disagree and so would I. I feel so much better now, honestly this has been the best thing I have ever done for myself. I mean my weight was always going up an down like a high school girl´s emotions but that is never a good thing. So now I have it under control. I am in a good relationship with my fridge, because now it supplies me with healthy food, well occasionally chocolate falls out of it, but hey we are all human right. So to empower you all out there. It is possible, it just takes a lot of hard work and sweat and mind control. First thing you need to do is cut back on unhealthy food and then go to the gym or work at home, whatever you do is better then nothing. Here is a link to a magician of home exercise. Currently I follow the 90 day warrior programme in case you wanted to know. http://hasfit.com/

                     ( at the end of the bridge that stops literally in the middle of the river in Avignon, France)

So what better way is there to start on a new beginning then with a little tale of my personal new era. Anyways we all get lost sometimes, but if you get lost, then you might find just what you need to get back on the road you were suppose to follow. New beginnings are at the horizon, I am telling you, everything is in chaos right now. The economy, politics, environment, everything is going to change and so must we. We as people need to step together and help each other. Because nevertheless we are social beings and we need presence of another, to be everything we were meant to be. All that we have lost has changed us, and we must not let the past to take control over us. We all grieve over something terrible that happened to us, it is a process of course, but one day you might want to pick yourself up because others need you, you need you, and as much as you want to cry over what you lost, you need to count all that has left. Because that is what matters now. We grieve over the people we used to be and friends we used to now, but at the end of the day that wont bring them back, neither it should. You are not that person who you were for a reason, you need to change, to evolve, to better yourself, because you need to survive. We all have somebody that has left us and we still think of them, from time to time, but lets remember them in a good way, shall we? Lets remember how much fun we had, because anything else will push us into a deep vertigo of negative thoughts, which I am sorry to say, we can not afford. You want to be a better person, a new person? Well start with happy, positive thoughts and control your mind. Because each new beginning start up there, yes up there in your brain. You start developing and before you know it you are a changed man. I mean you can also stay at the level of somebody in a high school, but i doubt it, that your boss or wife/husband will like that.
So we must all face the inevitable, we need to face the future and get ready in the present, because the sweet life ain't waiting for nobody. 

Life almost always gives you a choice, so take it in, don't do it just because you have to, do it because you want to. Let me give you an example, in school on the test you have this exercise you are dreading, and you just want to get it done and move on, well what good is that going to do? No, you must see it as a challenge and get ready for it with positive attitude, do it because you want to be good at it and you will come out the other way stronger, I promise you that. 

So everyday is a new beginning, everyday you can invent yourself into a better person. Remember, the options you have are limitless, you just need to put your mind to it. We always admire people for who they are, and we are saying we want to be like them. Well what are you waiting for? You wont be able to wish yourself into a character, you have to work hard and play hard, to get where you want to go.  So get your act together and be awesome and be better. 
now get to work bitch!


                                                                        (Saint Tropez)

Until the next time, 
With a big smile,             

“One can begin so many things with a new person! - even begin to be a better man.” 

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

9.entry: Mind vs. Heart

A good head and a good heart are always a formidable combination.

We all do have it, the good and the bad side. Even though not everything is so black and white, but our heart (soul) and our mind tell a story of their own. A constant battle between two forces so strong, and each one powerful in its own way. One powered by love, good and joy, the other by reason, cold hearted facts and memories. Our mind and our heart are in a constant battle to rule the body. We are all of those 3 combined. Now which one will we listen to. Some say we are what we think we are. Some say we are what we feel we are. Which one is it then?
Either one can not rule the body on its own. So I believe we must let them both win in time to time. We have to do things our reason tells us to do, and our heart. But when it comes to a difficult situation, which one do we listen to? We are all split into two. We want something but need the other thing. we need to find balance and not be just our reason or just our feelings. But again how do we find our balance. How do we weight our heart and our mind.? I guess the best solution is that we learn from experiences, mistakes and other people.
We so desperately want to be right all the time that we let our pride take the best of us. We need to let go of the continuous need to be right and except the knowledge and emotions from others, because no matter what, to some point we are dependent on others. We need the social interact with others and their respect if nothing more. Because we can not exist on our own. Of course we can and we should provide for ourselves and be independent when it comes to basic survival.

So head or heart? It would be wonderful if both wanted to go in the same direction, but lets face it is usually not like that. So be careful what you wish for and how you decide, because the decisions we make and act on are what makes us who we are.

I have seen so many people with a brilliant mind, but so unable to connect to others because they did not posses the touch for people around them. Yeah they know a lot but how will that help you when you need somebody to care for you when you feel down and in need of human attention. If you think only with your mind, you can go a long way, but if you put your heart in process you might actually do something right for yourself and for others. 
Do not get me wrong vice-verse is the same. People who use only their heart but are as dumb as a f**k, do not get it right as well. They are as sheep who follow their leader. It is fine to be a leader of the pack if you are one with both the heart and the mind, but if your sheep are stupid what does that say about you. 

Personally I dislike people who agree with me on everything, I would rather talk to a mirror then. What do you get from someone like that, except from some attention. But really, people should really think even more before they speak. I know they say speak your mind, but they did not mean that for dumb people. 

So either mind or heart, we are on this earth together. We should try harder to listen to others, but also be listened to. We all have our own versions of the truth, so speak true and believe in yourself and be good to others. And believe me it is always nice to meet smart and caring person, though they do not usually come in the same package.

Goodbye for now,

Sunday, March 3, 2013

8.entry: Ancient Egypt through modern eyes

Perfection is what leads to eternity!

I am back. Tanned and full of knowledge I have returned from Egypt.
This time I went full on exploring the ancient Egypt from Aswan to Cairo. I have seen everything from Abu Simbel to Pyramids in Giza and the whole journey was breath-taking.

Here are some pic from the trip!

So to tell you what I think about Egypt now that I have seen its true colors.
Ancient Egypt is wonderful at least the remains of it. It is a civilization so amazing and it is a shame they are not around anymore. I am fascinated by their religion, the gods such as Ra, Horus etc. and the power it had over the people. Mostly in a good way. These people were the ones who build the pyramids, can you imagine; 1 stone of the pyramid weighs around 2 or 2,5 tons and they built the biggest pyramid of Cheops in only 19 years. They had so much knowledge of the world around them, that even today`s scientists can not touch them in some ways. They were amazing workers as you can see from everything they made, and everything was just so perfect. And all the walls in the temples were covered in hieroglyphs and pictures of goods and Pharaohs telling us a story of their lives. Eternity, that is what they reached. People will know who they were and what they did. And if that is not something to admire.
Anyways I am just trying to say I am fascinated by the civilization that once ruled in Egypt, but the survival for life that is happening now is unbearable. 

We have seen few of the poorest parts of Egypt and people there have no dignity, no money and no respect for other people`s life. They would literally sell their children for 10 Egyptian pounds, but they are not all so bad. It is just their misfortune they were born in a world like that, that pushes them towards poverty and criminal. The main problem is that they do not go to schools and they don't know how to read, so it is really easy to manipulate them, and that is what some people are doing and they are doing it with money. I was sad to see the situation there, because if you are in Hurghada or Sharm el-Sheikh you do not see the parts of Egypt that are distressed and so on the down low. It was a real eye opener, when you see little kids begging for food and money, because their parents are too lazy to work or have no morals. We tourist, we go there maybe give them some money to ease our conscience, but then we return back home, to our house made of bricks and hot meal on the table every day, when some people out there do not have that luxury. It makes me cherish everything I have and makes me look at things differently. I wish I could change their lives for better but it is just not in my power, because no child or human deserves such a life they are leading, if I can even call that a life. So I hope one day people will see what they are doing and help their people in need and not see only money.
Sometimes I wonder where has this planet come to: Everywhere I look it is all about the money, people have no real values anymore, they do not respect anything other then money and would sell their dignity for a new car. I hope and I wish that one day, they will realize what matters and will change for the better.
Anyways enough about the world`s problems. Egypt was nevertheless amazing journey, I have smoked shisha, I bargained at bazaar, sail the Nile and went inside the biggest pyramid in the world. I have come to love the country with the good and the bad. So there is no doubt Egypt will be seeing more of me in the future.

For the ending I would just like to say to all my readers: TRAVEL! Travel as far as you can, and as long as your legs can take you. Because there is nothing more fulfilling then embracing the world around you and learning everyday about the mysteries of the world !!

Ma' Alsalam مع السلامة (goodbye in Arabic)

Saturday, February 2, 2013

7.entry: Hero within!

"Heroes take journeys, confront dragons, and discover the treasure of their true selves."

Dear people who are reading my blog!

I am back! I know it has been a while since I have posted, but I was covered up to my eye balls with work and studies. But you will be happy to hear that I passed both exams that I have taken in the past 2 weeks, so 1 more to go, and I will graduate form school of economics. Which immediately brings me to my second reason why I have been away: I am torn in what to do next. Literally I have no idea what I want to study after I am finished with bachelor or even where to study. On one hand I can always study here in Slovenia and then go for an exchange for a year, and on the other hand I want to go study abroad, maybe London or New York if the schools wouldn't be so damn expensive! So inside I am torn about my future, where I want to be in the next 5 years or so. I mean I would love to go abroad, but that means I would have to leave behind everything, my family and friends. If I am to come back one day, they will probably be still here but it wont be the same, like it was not after I came back from an exchange in Paris. Like I said in my previous blog entry: I guess we just need to adapt to changes and that what we get. Well Life, I am so ready!- throw everything you have my way and I will fight back. Because within everyone of us is a hero who will fight for its survival until the last breath.
So this will be today`s topic. In search of a hero who will save my, only to find there is a hero inside of me.

But firstly I would love to show you the song from this week`s Glee episode which describes my feelings to the point.
Basically it is a duet between the old and the new Rachel, and it is super common for young or older people to have dilemmas and that you are torn between opportunities.

And now lets begin a search for a hero that we so desperatelly need sometimes.
So what is hero by definition:

noun, plural he·roes;
1.a man of distinguished courage or ability, admired for his brave deeds and noble qualities.
2.a person who, in the opinion of others, has heroic qualities or has performed a heroic act and is regarded as a model or ideal: He was a local hero when he saved the drowning child.
3.the principal male character in a story, play, film, etc.

We are familiar with a look of a hero from movies like Barman, Spiderman, X-man, The Green Lantern, Star Wars etc. Basically it is someone who does something for others and expects nothing in return.

We see them in all sorts of films and are always so inspired by their greatness and their strength. And we think, OK, so they only exist in films and stories, but I refuse to believe that. I truly believe every one of us can be a hero, for themselves and for others. Because to start helping others you have to first help yourself and take upon the responsibility to be the best you can be, for you and for the world around you.
If you want to be saved, well the only person who will save you is you! So it is up to you to be strong, decisive, ambitious, smart and most important of them all, you need to be confident in yourself.
Do you still not believe me that everyone of us is a hero?

Here are 10 steps on how to become one:
1. Take control of your own life and do what makes you happy
2. Grow stronger physically and mentally
3. Work on social abilities and learn to smile
4. Dress nice and look amazing everyday
5. Learn how to solve your own problems first
6. Help others when you see an opportunity, and expect nothing in return
7. Know your weaknesses and accept them- it your biggest strength
8. Learn how to appreciate and say thank you (take nothing for granted)
9. Take responsibility for your own actions
10. Admit when you are wrong and get better

Take this 10 steps to reach a new level of a "modern good person" and be your hero for a change! I am not saying this because it is cliche or because it sounds good. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF! BE YOUR OWN HERO!

So even though sometimes I am complaining that life is hard and I don't have it easy. Well I overcame everything because I have learnt from my lessons and mistakes, and I will make new ones but that does not make you less strong or weak, just human. And even though sometimes I feel like I need somebody to help me on their own, it is really better to just ask for help (it is not a sign of weakness) and appreciate it.
So after all this can you still argue with me that there are no real life heroes. What is more heroic then be the best you can be for you and others. Let me tell you something; if we all strive to be better and to help each other on the way, I am truly confident that the world can be a better place. But like everything else it starts with(in) us. We are the ones who have to make the first step and then be the example for others so they will also try to be better.

With all my heart I am saying this to you: Be the hero you deserve to be, and the world deserves to have. Be good, be kind, be respectful, and people will see your strength and will accept you.

So I am finishing my article now. I hope I have inspired you to find hero within you.
Only you are responsible for your own actions, so make them remarkable and heroic.


Saturday, January 12, 2013

6.entry: Friends for(not)ever

This is how you survive the trauma, not by knowing it will be alright, but by having no other choice!

So today`s topic will be a little bit more personal and not so cheerful, but quite true. You know how you say: "Friends forever, I will love you to death", (yeah if you don't stab me in the back first). People come and go, I get that, but do not say something if you fo not mean it!

                                                                  Cheryl - A Million Lights

It has been a hard week behind me, a lot of stress at work and in school and also in my personal life. It is just some people, they make you feel like you are disposable to them and fuck it, I say. I know they say that if you do good, it will come back at ya, but I am still waiting and my patience is wearing out.
I mean you get to the point of the relationship with someone where you ask yourself, what good am I getting from this person? I feel like I am investing a lot, my physical and mental energy and what I get in return - ignorance and careless attitude.
It is making me furious how some people can be so selfish, and it is hard for me to understand that they are incapable of actually thinking how they will make other person feel.
Sometimes I just feel like I am too nice to everybody, I just wanna believe there is good in everybody. No matter what, I will keep on searching for it. It is so easy to say I love you to a friend, but to actually show it, yeah that is another story, with not so happy ending.
I have been through fair share of broken friendships and forgotten memories, and I can tell you for a fact that pretending you are not hurt is not going to do you any good. Sometimes it is better to admit to yourself that you got screwed and well just deal with it. Cuz sooner or later you will have to deal with it. If not you will stay in this funk and it will be hard to trust somebody again soon. I do not take this true friendship so lightly. I have friends that I hang out with just because it is fun and to enjoy myself, and then I have friends I trust and talk to, about my issues and life in general. So if you are in the 2. group then you need to be careful and not let me down.

I get attached pretty quickly and you don't need to get me drunk for me to open up to somebody, but lately I have been feeling a bit closed up, cuz I don't feel like people actually care how I am feeling. I am not talking about everyone I know, just in case some of my friends are reading this so they will not take offense. It is just I have expectations from my friends, and lately they keep on disappointing me. Should I lower my expectations or should they try harder. I am not asking for a lot, just some honesty and affection. Is this too much to ask for? So many times I put other`s needs ahead of mine, and when the roles are reversed I find myself on the bottom of my friend`s to do list. It is not fair. You can not just take, take, take and give nothing back. Some people are too opportunistic to have real friends, they see you as a gold mine, and they take and dig for the gold, and when you are empty they close the door and move to another "gold mine". And that is what I was to some people. A damn gold mine.

Many people who were my friends and we were really close, and then I introduced them to some other people I knew, and you know what? They became best friends and totally ditched me and that left me so hurt and broken. Literally I was shocked how somebody can just leave you for a person you introduced him/her to. I get that you become friends, but to cancel on me now because of this, have you ever though about how I will be feeling about all this? If you haven't, then what was our friendship all about? It is hard for me to write this, but it is honestly one of the biggest fears I have, to be left. I am afraid one day I will wake up and my friend will be like, "yeah we are done now." And it has happened before, that is why I am writing all this. I can not be around people who are making this relationship so insecure and fragile. If you are going to let me down, then do it easily, don't just cut me off like this. But nevertheless, that is life. Lesson learned. I guess.

So that was kind of liberating, now at least you know my fear and my weakness. It is just that, I got familiar with goodbyes, and sometimes goodbye is a good thing, it is a way for us to start again. We just have to find that good in goodbye (first 4 letters of the word =D) and we will be alright. We need to just deal with goodbyes and not be afraid of them, because the chances are they will not stop and we will be left with another new beginning. And it is up to us, how we will start and more importantly when.

                                                         Madonna - The Power Of Goodbye

So this is my thought on friends forever. It happens you know, you meet the wrong person, get to attached and then you are left with a broken heart. But it gets healed. So that is all forgotten now.
What I want now, is to thank all my friends, they know who they are, for being there and just for loving me. =D I know super cheesy, but I am a firm believer that sometimes it is good to show emotions and to show appreciation for others and to let them know how they make you feel.!

Stay true to yourself and mean what you say!
Lots of love. xoxo